As I lay there in bed all night, lonely... as can be, w/out my beloved.... I think of Heather D., -recently widowed this year, & I wonder if SHE is awake right now, at this moment, and feeling as just as lonely.... ??
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Chris (my husband & truckdriver)came home last night, but had to eat, shower and get right to bed, to wake up at 2 AM!! :( -The usual....
Of course, I wake up w/ him, as always, to cook him a good breakfast, make his lunch, coffee, etc... Then off, back to bed I go. Yay- sleep!! :)
Usually one, or both of the kids will sleep in my room w/ me, to keep me from getting depressed and lonely.... but Brittany said she hasn't gotten to sleep in her own bed for awhile, and she reeeeally needed a good night's sleep, AND she wanted Cody to keep HER company. She asked very sweetly and politely, so I figured "I'm the adult. I can do this. I can make this 'sacrifice' ".
I lay there awake most of the remainder of the night... praying, and praying....
-Still didn't get much sleep....
Man!- Am I tired!! Whew!!....
And what does Brittany say this morning?
She "didn't get any sleep".
I'm sure glad that was worth it! = )
Anyway.... just had to get this off my mind, by sharing.
My heart goes out to the lonely....
-Kt
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Oh Katie~ Sending hugs your way. So sorry you are being hit with the "lonelies." I can relate. Tom has to be gone way too much for my taste.
I keep thinking about you and your love for fall. In about 1 month I have a great location to take you to! So get your rake and camera ready! : )
Love,
Rebecca
Yeah... =(
Thank you.
Fortunately, it doesn't happen too often- (my getting overwhelmed w/ lonliness).
We've actually gotten quite used to our life the way it is feeling "normal". It's gotten to be "normal" for US.... But SOMETIMES..... ya know....
I like to think of it as "Hey... back in pioneer days, and "Little House on the Prairie" type days... the men could be gone for days, hunting, or going into town, and out in the wilderness & dangerous storms.... and the woman would be left to hold the fort down and mother her children...."
If I think of it that way.... I don't feel so bad. It all seems quite normal.
Nonetheless, it's what God has given us for now, so we are to be grateful for it, in whatever size of time it comes in, and boy! You and I know we are truly grateful for every minute!! Hah? = )
This has been a rough season of life, but boy, has God sure made me so much stronger & more grateful, and even more of a loving wife. We know God has a wonderful purpose for it all, right Rebecca?
I remember when we'd first gotten married, and he was working 12-16 hrs./ day, and 6 days/ week. I was out in the boonies w/ no car & no phone. (Literally like a jail/ no social communication/ independance)... He would come home, eat, and go to bed to get rest, so he could wake up early for the next day. It was dreadful!! I spent every night crying in a fetal position & wanted to die!! .....(Course... I also then got into a horrible car accident, and didn't want to die any more, after that....!) :)
As the years passed, I thought they'd get better. But as it turned out, he's away from us more and more w/ each job! Boy! Do I cry out to God, ALOT!!! I often wonder "What next God? Are you preparing me to lose him to DEATH, too????" I just never know. None of us do, though. We are called to "Make the BEST of EVERY oppurtunity". And, boy! -Do we!! =)
Our situation also makes us more compassionate to others, and God told us He meant for it to be that way.... And His plan is working!! It pulls us all together too!! :)
I love ya' sister!!
Thank you!! :)
Blessings to you all!! :)
I can relate with this feeling--we are living in a similar way. I do not sleep well at night (huge understatement!) when my dh is gone...
:)
Kat
Thanks Kat..
How'd ya find me??
It's nice to meet you!! :)
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